ok this is it

[devious]

that`s real shit, and Im feeling so terrible, and this day is shit, I realy feel shit! so If I didnt come here agan that means I realy killed that stuped useless piece f shit ramy and I realy hate that guy and I`m gona kil him someday., not so far from now. dont try to contact me.
cool.

[Zek]

what happens Ramy? what's wrong with you? tell something!!!

[devious]

never mind Zek, Im having one of those bad days... thanx for asking, I donnu why I posted this stuped thread.. but I dont have anyone to speak with, so.

[Zek]

never mind Zek, Im having one of those bad days... thanx for asking, I donnu why I posted this stuped thread.. but I dont have anyone to speak with, so.

hmmm... if you have some problems on just general things I am fine to help you out at least with advise ;) don't worry too much about things... nothing is really worth that, almost nothing :evil:

so PM me if you want or when you need, this forum with its members is a bit more than just an internet site to me :)

[devious]

thanks man I realy appreciate ur concern, I would never forget that... It`s just sometimes I feel like hating myself for many reasons, I dont live my life like anyother, I care for others but never look at myself.. sometimes I just hate that and want to do something else, but cant find anything to prove Im worse this stuped life I live man.. this is so terrible feeling, I hope no one would feel like Im feeling.. this is real shit!! :worried:

[GiorgioII]

Ramy, it takes a stronger person to face up to his problems and to beat them than it does to succumb to their power. We all get down from time to time, and I assume that you are feeling dreadful right now and I hope we can all do something to help. Whatever the problem is you can tell us....there are lots of friends here, we have probably gone through similar things.....we would miss you terribly if you did anything stupid like killing yourself.....you know how concerned I was last time you went missing.........we're hear to help, this is more than a discussion forum, it is a fellowship.

[devious]

thanks G... dont worry pal, I wouldnt kill myself, I just reach this idea when there is no other way.. huh how silly am I!!.
I cant tell u what the problem is, but it`s not about girls and it`s not about a freind either.. it`s about me having an experiance that I dont want to remember.. this experiance just showed me how much Im a dumb person and have a shit personality and weakness.. maybe Im a stronge and pretend to be smart with others.. but in fact Im so cowred and stuped, there is no other way to describe how I feel.. if there is a way I could prove myself wrong I would find.. but it`s the truth unfortunatly and Im not shame to tell u about it cause it is the truth. Im so angry at myself and I wish I have never been born.
I realy dont like Drama.. but what can I say!

[Zek]

thanks G... dont worry pal, I wouldnt kill myself, I just reach this idea when there is no other way.. huh how silly am I!!.
I cant tell u what the problem is, but it`s not about girls and it`s not about a freind either.. it`s about me having an experiance that I dont want to remember.. this experiance just showed me how much Im a dumb person and have a shit personality and weakness.. maybe Im a stronge and pretend to be smart with others.. but in fact Im so cowred and stuped, there is no other way to describe how I feel.. if there is a way I could prove myself wrong I would find.. but it`s the truth unfortunatly and Im not shame to tell u about it cause it is the truth. Im so angry at myself and I wish I have never been born.
I realy dont like Drama.. but what can I say!

I would enjoy swearing and shouting at you all the way down now. But afraid this ain't help you my friend.

It's easy to say I am weak or stupid or coward, it is a bit hard to prove that, and its even harder to prove it wrong.

People live their lives for reasons they enjoy or hate, but they still live it. Suicide is a solution, but why to kill yourself to please your own ego or someone else's ego? it's pointless in most cases.

I've been through ups and downs so many times by now... I've been trying myself standing on edge of the window in the evenings and thinking how it feels to jump down... But now realized it's a useful exercise, but the end is not the one you wish to have.

Life would have been boring if everything went all right all the time!

as for personality, you can work hard to change it but first you need to understand and prove that your personality is bad or weak ;) cauz I would say you're wrong, you have a personality! just need to look at yourself objectively, not through the black window...

[GiorgioII]

Ramy, we all love you here and you have much to offer......I never see you as being weak or a coward....but if that is how you feel then you need to prove to yourself that you are not by getting out there and doing something amazing...I know you have it in you :) .

[devious]

hey guys thanks, I`m realy feeling better now.. sometimes u face problems that is bigger than ur power and u cant hadle it, but still life wont stop.. u should survive it, right? :)
I start working on it yesterday, Im trying to avid thinking of what happened and it makes me feel good realy, thank u Zek and G. u guys realy helped me as I dont have too much freinds out their that could understand me but u did and another freind here in the forum also helped me with some advises, thank u Mariel :)
This isnt a forum to talka bout football for me anymore or somekind a club to meet other freinds, this is realy a better place than Im living in.. it`s like my home when u feel confirtable and peacful. :)

[Ryan27]

This isnt a forum to talka bout football for me anymore or somekind a club to meet other freinds, this is realy a better place than Im living in.. it`s like my home when u feel confirtable and peacful. :)
Ahhh...nismo's departure and now kind words from devious...this place is getting too sentimental! Really though devious, I know what you mean. The only place better than one where adoring Inter fantatics get together to discuss their passion would be the San Siro itself...

[devious]

maybe man, maybe we could all meet someday, impossible is nothig ;)

[MarieL]

Happy to hear you're feeling good now D. :)

[suisse is gay]

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[Sebastian]

...devious man....what's up...i havent been here my friend im sorry i had some responsibilities...are you ok???...i just read you're "APOCALIPTIC"post and i got confused...

[devious]

hehe.. thanks dude.. dont worry, Im a lot better now, I just had a problem and I wanted to share with you guys.. thanks anyway man :)

[Zek]

always ready to help out :smoking:

[Sebastian]

hehe.. thanks dude.. dont worry, Im a lot better now, I just had a problem and I wanted to share with you guys.. thanks anyway man :)

...hey man dont scare me with depressive and melancholic stuff like that ok????im glad that you're fine...